Beautiful Disaster...

Maybe I'm tired, maybe my brain has gotten enough of this research. Whatever it is, I decided to write. Write about the beautiful things that keep our world spinning on an angle. If we think about how our world operates, we understand that we sometimes have to look at things in an abstract way of thinking. How often do you tilt your head when something captures your interest? Anyways, the beauty of the world lies in the beholder, and the beholder is different with each person, culture, and society. So we can never really have a solid definition of beauty; it is ever evolving. But ironically, and rhetorically, that is what makes it so captivating, so intriguing, so interesting, so....beautiful.

If I could describe my life right now, it would be with one word: spontaneous. While many people are scared of the unknown, that is what wakes me up everyday, not knowing what opportunity God will place before me or what obstacle I will face. The conversations that change and inspire your life, the circumstances that you are thrown into each and every minute, the people that hurt you, the ones who build you up....your spirit being broken or rejuvenated. Through all of this uncertainty, we can become unbalanced, therefore becoming fearful of what happens next. However, those that choose to look for validation within themselves through the midst of each and every day find beauty in spontaneity. Believing that God does not give you more than you can handle provides the reassurance that no matter what, things will be alright.

Heartache and pain will come, but the strongest people will endure. With that statement, I think of how beautiful elderly people are, even the ones that seem angry at the world. When I see a senior citizen, I can see the life they lived through the wrinkles, crippled bones, and sometimes broken smile. I question what they have seen over their lifetime; who they have loved; who they have given life to; what they've lost; what they wanted to be and could've been. Regardless, the beauty in their age is that they have endured more than I will ever know. They are wise because of the years, and can share that because they never gave up.

And that's what I'm learning right now. Regardless of what tomorrow holds, I will never give up on my goals, my dreams, and my prayers. I also won't ever give up on the people that have impacted my life, whether or not they are still around. Heartache, pain, and uncertainty has made me strong, and continues to do so. Which is a weird dynamic: why do I appreciate those three phases of my life? Because at the end of the day, if I am alright with the ever evolving person that I am, then they are beautiful. However, what is even more beautiful is that with the heartache, pain, and uncertainty, my life is full of joy, happiness, success, and most importantly, love. Indescribable love that my faith has brought me to. A love that is stronger than any other. Some may find that in a significant other, others in family, the fortunate in themselves, and the blessed in some spiritual being. But I know where mine comes from, and because of that, I get through it all.....

learning....
feeling....
growing....
loving....

the beauty of the uncertainty and ........

spontaneity that keeps our world spinning...

♥LB